Post by haysihawk on Jan 18, 2009 5:42:04 GMT -6
From LuFisto's MySpace blog www.myspace.com/lufisto
My Year in Review...
Where to start? In a way, it's been a very long year and I'm glad it's finally over. 2007 had been very hard when it comes to my personnal life but 2008 was aweful. On the wrestling side though, it's another story...
A few days after my birthday, I decided to end a relationship that lasted 6 years. Therefore, I moved to my friend's Pat for 4 months in the middle of winter (Thanx again Pat for your help!!)... To move again in July into my own place. It cost me a lot of money to be free.
I also spent a lot of money and emotions trying to make a new long distance relationship work that ended up being just an illusion. Because of this bs, I got very sick, my hair was falling (yeah, that's why I can't bleach my hair anymore because too much stress caused my hair to become super thin and there are some spots where all my hair just fell). I lost and gained weight, didn't sleep for nights and got bitter at life in general.
I knew that being disapointed by somebody could hurt, but I never thought it could disturb me that much. I've always been very strong... But this time I fell. I guess that after being hurt so many times by people you trust and love, you just can't take it anymore.
To you, and you know who you are, I wish you happiness. I hope you'll make up your mind on what you want and need. May your heart be free of whatever makes it confused. All the best... xxx
I've been trying to meet the good guy but all I can see now is people who could hurt me. When I meet somebody cool, they are running away when they know I travel on weekends for wrestling or because I speak my mind. It's been a while now that I go back home and I notice that there is nobody.... No lover, no familly, nothing... As much as I love wrestling, I must admit that it got me in that situation.
I don't know how much people know the sacrifices we have to make to become pro wrestlers and stay on top of our game. For sure, I'm not the best out there but I try to always give everything I got. I travel, I train, I spend time on my merchandise, my website... Therefore, there isn't much left for anything else... 11 years later, the reality hits hard... No wonder I liked the movie The Wrestler... It felt like a little part of my story was being told... And so many of us are in the same situation...
Everything is not all bad though... At least, I still have a good job in multimedia and I must say that I was blessed with good friends.
First, my ALF crew, Stephane, Kim, Chris and Tolo.... Always there to make me laugh and work on fun projects. I got to meet super cool people in Germany like my friends Jan and Chris who keep in touch almost every week. I also got to know some workers better like Anna Minoushka, Mary Lollypop, Charlotte Lamothe, Cat Power, Cherry Bomb, the very tall and sexy Persephone Vice and my lovely partner Jen Blake. She's been very supportive throughout the year and I thank her for her kindness. I miss you so much. Xxx
I also got to meet one cool dude in Sami Callihan. Not too many people stay in touch with you outside of the wrestling world but he does. Sami, I appreciate every e-mail you send me just to know how I'm doing. You're a real class act and although you are far away, you are a real friend.
Finally, I've been blessed by and angel called Danyah. For those who know her in the ring, she's the one who always look magnificent and who give 100% everytime. To me, she is a dear friend who calms me down, listens and understands. She helps me to set goals for myself and be at peace when I go through tough times. I met her on my birthday... And she is the best gift I had this year. I love you! Xoxox
Wrestling in 2008... Match of the night year?
So you see, besides my friends and familly, 2008 has been the shits when it comes to my personal life... But when it comes to wrestling...Wooooooo!
I thought that my back injury would slow me down... Well... I was dead wrong. For some reason, I never had so many «Match of the Night» and «This is awesome» chants in my matches. Of course, I'm not perfect but I think I did pretty well as a wrestler... And WITHOUT hardcore!!!
Actually, I think that's why I'm so proud. Many people thought that I was just a hardcore bitch, that I couldn't wrestle... And with the comments I got from the fans and the rankings on a few sites, I'm so happy that people can see how much I love this sport and all the efforts I put in every match.
The first match that comes to mind is the one with my student Stefany Sinclair. She got to pin me but I was so proud. She worked very hard to get there as, just as me, she was told many time that she wouldn't make it... I'm sorry she stopped wrestling for now... But I understand... Good luck at school honey!
I loved each and every matches as part of the Suicide Blondes with Jen... Wrestling the Flatliners and hitting JC Owens again after so many years was gold!
I also wrestled people I see as legends like the Dudleys and Awesome Kong... Had tones of fun with Becky and Rain at Shimmer and pushed my limits with Wesna and Cheerleader Melissa. With them, I was able to find that little spark inside of me that made me better as a worker.
As much as I hate to be on top of a card, all I can say is thank you... Thank you to the promoters who believed in me and gave me opportunities in 2008. To Dave Prazak for letting me push my anime gimmick in hard-hitting wrestling matches... To John Zandig «the boss» for always trusting in my abilities and opening the US territory for me. I give props to people who helped me... And in the States, I wouldn't be much without John Zandig and Dave Prazak. Much love!
In Quebec, I got to become ICW Olympic champion and it felt good to go back home. ICW will always be the place where LuFisto was born... At ALF, I became champ and... Heel! It's very weird but sometimes, you need some change... I like it but I miss my anime character in Quebec! I'm still involved in updating the website and creating all the entrance videos too.
Speaking of ALF, I'm saddened by the fact that some girls left or stopped wrestling. It's hard to find female wrestlers who have a real passion. And no, I don't want to train new people... They all end up quitting or well, they ignore you after you've given so much... I'm bitter at former students who don't talk to me anymore because their new friends said so... It's sad to see that people can be so weak sometimes... Anyway... Another thing that got me bitter at 2008...
But maybe the only bad thing in wrestling this year which is pwetty, pwetty good!
Looking forward to 2009....
After 2 years of nothing really good in my personal life, I'm hoping for the best. I'm training very hard in the gym so I can get in shape... Not easy though as it's always been so hard to lose weight for me... I just look at a cake and I get fat! LOL I hope to find somebody good for me too... Crossing my fingers...
As for wrestling, I'm very excited by my upcoming matches with OBD and Sara del Rey. I have so much respect for these women who made it big. Actually, I wouldn't be surprise to see Sara make it to TNA. She deserves a shot for sure!
I know I will never make it there because I'm too small, too fat and I don't have the look they are looking for... I know some people already told me «Ah come on, they hired Kong and she's one big and strong women, why not you?» Yes for sure... But Kong is one of a kind and I see her as above anyone else, in a league of her own. Actually, we should all thank her... She is the reason why women wrestling is back on track. Period!
With my small stature, I have to be realistic.... Unless I can finally lose 20-30 pounds... There is no way I'll ever get a chance. I'm trying but since I went from 200 pounds to 140... It's been very hard to lose what's left... Ah well, Once again... I will do my best! With the help of super hot Danyah, that should help...
For sure, if I had one last dream to fulfill in pro wrestling, it would be to have only one match in TNA... Ah well, I can always dream... But it's great to see some women I worked with on TV because I know how hard they've been working... Women like Kong, Melissa, Roxxxi, Josie now known as Sojourney and my girl, Mickie 'Moose' Knuckles!
Maybe I will go back to Mexico and Germany this year... I will be at Shimmer and Jersey All Pro later this year for sure as well. CZW and ALF are also on my calendar... And hopefully more stuff in California and Chikara!
So the new year is here.. Finally! Let's hope this one will rock in all aspect of my life! Love you all and thanx for your support. Your love kept me going...
LuFisto
xxx
My Year in Review...
Where to start? In a way, it's been a very long year and I'm glad it's finally over. 2007 had been very hard when it comes to my personnal life but 2008 was aweful. On the wrestling side though, it's another story...
A few days after my birthday, I decided to end a relationship that lasted 6 years. Therefore, I moved to my friend's Pat for 4 months in the middle of winter (Thanx again Pat for your help!!)... To move again in July into my own place. It cost me a lot of money to be free.
I also spent a lot of money and emotions trying to make a new long distance relationship work that ended up being just an illusion. Because of this bs, I got very sick, my hair was falling (yeah, that's why I can't bleach my hair anymore because too much stress caused my hair to become super thin and there are some spots where all my hair just fell). I lost and gained weight, didn't sleep for nights and got bitter at life in general.
I knew that being disapointed by somebody could hurt, but I never thought it could disturb me that much. I've always been very strong... But this time I fell. I guess that after being hurt so many times by people you trust and love, you just can't take it anymore.
To you, and you know who you are, I wish you happiness. I hope you'll make up your mind on what you want and need. May your heart be free of whatever makes it confused. All the best... xxx
I've been trying to meet the good guy but all I can see now is people who could hurt me. When I meet somebody cool, they are running away when they know I travel on weekends for wrestling or because I speak my mind. It's been a while now that I go back home and I notice that there is nobody.... No lover, no familly, nothing... As much as I love wrestling, I must admit that it got me in that situation.
I don't know how much people know the sacrifices we have to make to become pro wrestlers and stay on top of our game. For sure, I'm not the best out there but I try to always give everything I got. I travel, I train, I spend time on my merchandise, my website... Therefore, there isn't much left for anything else... 11 years later, the reality hits hard... No wonder I liked the movie The Wrestler... It felt like a little part of my story was being told... And so many of us are in the same situation...
Everything is not all bad though... At least, I still have a good job in multimedia and I must say that I was blessed with good friends.
First, my ALF crew, Stephane, Kim, Chris and Tolo.... Always there to make me laugh and work on fun projects. I got to meet super cool people in Germany like my friends Jan and Chris who keep in touch almost every week. I also got to know some workers better like Anna Minoushka, Mary Lollypop, Charlotte Lamothe, Cat Power, Cherry Bomb, the very tall and sexy Persephone Vice and my lovely partner Jen Blake. She's been very supportive throughout the year and I thank her for her kindness. I miss you so much. Xxx
I also got to meet one cool dude in Sami Callihan. Not too many people stay in touch with you outside of the wrestling world but he does. Sami, I appreciate every e-mail you send me just to know how I'm doing. You're a real class act and although you are far away, you are a real friend.
Finally, I've been blessed by and angel called Danyah. For those who know her in the ring, she's the one who always look magnificent and who give 100% everytime. To me, she is a dear friend who calms me down, listens and understands. She helps me to set goals for myself and be at peace when I go through tough times. I met her on my birthday... And she is the best gift I had this year. I love you! Xoxox
Wrestling in 2008... Match of the night year?
So you see, besides my friends and familly, 2008 has been the shits when it comes to my personal life... But when it comes to wrestling...Wooooooo!
I thought that my back injury would slow me down... Well... I was dead wrong. For some reason, I never had so many «Match of the Night» and «This is awesome» chants in my matches. Of course, I'm not perfect but I think I did pretty well as a wrestler... And WITHOUT hardcore!!!
Actually, I think that's why I'm so proud. Many people thought that I was just a hardcore bitch, that I couldn't wrestle... And with the comments I got from the fans and the rankings on a few sites, I'm so happy that people can see how much I love this sport and all the efforts I put in every match.
The first match that comes to mind is the one with my student Stefany Sinclair. She got to pin me but I was so proud. She worked very hard to get there as, just as me, she was told many time that she wouldn't make it... I'm sorry she stopped wrestling for now... But I understand... Good luck at school honey!
I loved each and every matches as part of the Suicide Blondes with Jen... Wrestling the Flatliners and hitting JC Owens again after so many years was gold!
I also wrestled people I see as legends like the Dudleys and Awesome Kong... Had tones of fun with Becky and Rain at Shimmer and pushed my limits with Wesna and Cheerleader Melissa. With them, I was able to find that little spark inside of me that made me better as a worker.
As much as I hate to be on top of a card, all I can say is thank you... Thank you to the promoters who believed in me and gave me opportunities in 2008. To Dave Prazak for letting me push my anime gimmick in hard-hitting wrestling matches... To John Zandig «the boss» for always trusting in my abilities and opening the US territory for me. I give props to people who helped me... And in the States, I wouldn't be much without John Zandig and Dave Prazak. Much love!
In Quebec, I got to become ICW Olympic champion and it felt good to go back home. ICW will always be the place where LuFisto was born... At ALF, I became champ and... Heel! It's very weird but sometimes, you need some change... I like it but I miss my anime character in Quebec! I'm still involved in updating the website and creating all the entrance videos too.
Speaking of ALF, I'm saddened by the fact that some girls left or stopped wrestling. It's hard to find female wrestlers who have a real passion. And no, I don't want to train new people... They all end up quitting or well, they ignore you after you've given so much... I'm bitter at former students who don't talk to me anymore because their new friends said so... It's sad to see that people can be so weak sometimes... Anyway... Another thing that got me bitter at 2008...
But maybe the only bad thing in wrestling this year which is pwetty, pwetty good!
Looking forward to 2009....
After 2 years of nothing really good in my personal life, I'm hoping for the best. I'm training very hard in the gym so I can get in shape... Not easy though as it's always been so hard to lose weight for me... I just look at a cake and I get fat! LOL I hope to find somebody good for me too... Crossing my fingers...
As for wrestling, I'm very excited by my upcoming matches with OBD and Sara del Rey. I have so much respect for these women who made it big. Actually, I wouldn't be surprise to see Sara make it to TNA. She deserves a shot for sure!
I know I will never make it there because I'm too small, too fat and I don't have the look they are looking for... I know some people already told me «Ah come on, they hired Kong and she's one big and strong women, why not you?» Yes for sure... But Kong is one of a kind and I see her as above anyone else, in a league of her own. Actually, we should all thank her... She is the reason why women wrestling is back on track. Period!
With my small stature, I have to be realistic.... Unless I can finally lose 20-30 pounds... There is no way I'll ever get a chance. I'm trying but since I went from 200 pounds to 140... It's been very hard to lose what's left... Ah well, Once again... I will do my best! With the help of super hot Danyah, that should help...
For sure, if I had one last dream to fulfill in pro wrestling, it would be to have only one match in TNA... Ah well, I can always dream... But it's great to see some women I worked with on TV because I know how hard they've been working... Women like Kong, Melissa, Roxxxi, Josie now known as Sojourney and my girl, Mickie 'Moose' Knuckles!
Maybe I will go back to Mexico and Germany this year... I will be at Shimmer and Jersey All Pro later this year for sure as well. CZW and ALF are also on my calendar... And hopefully more stuff in California and Chikara!
So the new year is here.. Finally! Let's hope this one will rock in all aspect of my life! Love you all and thanx for your support. Your love kept me going...
LuFisto
xxx
